Perceptions....

End Of one beginning is the beginning of another one!!

“ The end of one beginning is the beginning of another one…” My stay in this city to which I am addicted has come to an end. Sometime in the middle of the next month I will be shifting to Pune to join my husband and begin a new chapter of my life and it feels extremely strange.

Whatever I have learned from this city, I would not have in any other place. “ The me” who entered this place is so different from “the me” who is leaving….There is one song which plays in my head “I am leaving on a jet plane…donno when I will be back again…”

There are lessons learnt, friends forgotten, new ones discovered, the sweetness of solitude cherished…and somewhere there is pain..but it does not hurt..coz I am numbed .Numbness…one very important lesson learnt for keeps.

It’s strange that though now I am married and communicate far more with my family and friends, my individuality is far more defined..I am at peace with myself and there better be something very grave to disturb this peace. There is a shift on the understanding of the term grave and at times the most grave situations just don’t disturb..because I am numb and comfortable with that feeling. I have realized that everybody has a lovely person hidden inside and one must explore that side of oneself…that it is really difficult to be lonely, even if one is alone..once that person hidden is discovered.

I have learnt that one should empty oneself of emotions to keep that equlibrium in life maintained, because the pendulum of life swings both ways.

I have learnt that there is nothing that is right, wrong, black or white..everything is a shade of grey and that is just okay. It pays to give people the benefit of doubt..that life is beautiful and adventurous and each one is alone…everything else is a facilitator to achieve that one purpose..which you think is your mission on earth. And yes, This mission changes with each passing year or maybe even every day, at times!

Since one is alone all that one Is obliged to do is to keep oneself happy by exploring that good side that one has…

There are memories which maybe, at some point will lie in a dusty corner of my mind..but when these memories were events they made me what I am…and I am happy the way things turned out to be…That someone else will occupy the same place that I do now and life moves on..and that is a beautiful feeling to have!!

I have learnt to seek humour coz there is no other manner of dealing with a situation and it is funny that as my folks shift to Mumbai..i shift out..that when I got settled in mumbai it’s time to leave..that when I was looking at blogging even more…the department of telecom had banned this site in the name of terrorism.

I am awaiting to tell those many many stories that are still untold..waiting as life shall unfold..J))

posted by shikha @ 12:05 PM